3 years

=>09 June 2011




Time flies...It 's already 3 years exactly you leave us
I still cannot forget d image of 3 years ago today






The song you like

Tough

=>14 May 2011



Finally my final for my third semester was ended on 10 May. But it doesn't end in my mind. Why so? I have to face my super duper most terrible results in next semester. What should i say? Blame how useless am I? Really exhausted at all but the outcome not as you wish, but worst. I cannot say how hardworking am I, but at least I am diligent than before.

I believe so the other people try as much as possible to enjoy their holiday now. I really try my best for relaxing but it still such a big stone pressure and so called burden in my heart that make me could not be release. It 's poor thing. I should admit I get lost myself. Maybe i should find back myself. =( Who can teach me the ways? Or as a matter of fact non people could intervene. Or just do not interfere is better.
Hmm just ignore what i am saying if you do not understand. Treat it as i am talking as nonsense myself. =)

The world is realistic, we cannot always get what we like and wish to get. But it doesn't mean we can blame, or we should not blame, because sometimes we could not change the situation. But at least you should know what you should like to do, and you suppose try your full best to achieve it. In this way, you will not have regrets.

On the other way, if you already put your efforts but as the result you fail to achieve or dissatisfaction on the outcome, you may feel disappoint, despair, lost hope or maybe you start to suspect your own ability.

Anyway, i still believe that I can endure everything. Try to strengthen yourself !! I won't be easily falling down. I will be strong. Trust on me !! :-)


must be tough anyway ... =)





------------------you divided by me =) ----------------------------


Recently i was found that a song lyrics quite meaningful although it was already quite long time ago. It 's named 你不是真正的快乐 by 五月天。。。This is quite long time ago right since i am not so much notice of it last time...=)
How upset the song lyrics but the last few sentences it still remain the happy ending for encouraging people start their new life with hapinesses... =)


人 群中 哭著 你只想變成透明的顏色
你再也不會夢 或痛 或心動了
你已經決定了 你已經決定了

你 靜靜 忍著 緊緊把昨天在拳心握著
而回憶越是甜 就是 越傷人了
越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深淺淺 的刀割

你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

這 世界 笑了 於是妳合群的一起笑了
當生存是規則 不是 你的選擇
於是妳 含著眼淚 飄飄盪盪 跌跌撞撞 的走著

你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

你不是真正的快樂 你的傷從不肯完全的癒合
我站在你左側 卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了 然後才後悔著

你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什麼失去了 還要被懲罰呢
能不能就讓 悲傷全部 結束在此刻 重新開始活著

Failure!!!!!!

=> 9 May 2011

此时此刻我不知道该说什么

深深了解自己只不过是那么的差劲

没有多难的东西也搞到要当掉了

还有什么词可以形容

只有“愚蠢” ！！！

这下好了

原本能减轻一点经济负担的scholarship都遗失了

你不死也没用！！！

你的脑袋很没用

什么东西都记不住！

左边进，右边出！！

什么脑来的！！！

你不死也没用！！！

其实都证明了什么？？

你只不过是个失败者！！！、

非常彻底的失败者！！！

你去死！！！你去死好了！！！

同样的

拜托不要问

让我静一静！！！

='(

BIG FAILURE IS ME

=>18 April 2011

此时此刻，我不知如何形容我的状态

我只发觉

一直以来

原来我只不过是个失败者

彻底的失败者

什么事都做不好的失败者

一些小事都做不好的失败者

以前不曾付出过也就算了

现在付出努力也什么也做不好的失败者

直到今天，才真正地了解这样的自己
在别人面前饮泣，是多么的不好受

或许，自己一开始不应该奢望能做的多好

因为自己没有这个资格

因为自己，只不过是个彻底的失败者

BIG FAILURE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

拜托，不要问

让我静一静

='(((((((((((((((

重新出发～=D

=>15th Jan 2011...




新学期不知不觉已过了一个星期
第一个星期里
虽然每一堂课都可说还非正式开始上课
或开始一些些基本的
在听完每个课程的course structure获知我们需要完成多少
尤其是M.S.
忽然觉得压力是有增无减
都往上涌的压力
深怕自己做不好
毕竟自己有自己的理想
也希望能做到自己的标准
所以一一定定要摆脱以前颓废的自己
不能再得过且过
重新出发！！加油，坚持，好吗


一个人快乐以否
出于在他的处理思绪能力
无论在他身上发生了非常消极的事
但他明白该怎样调整他的思绪
把消极化为动力或机会，等等
明白怎样才是对自己更好
俗话说得好，

痛苦来临时不要总问：“为什么偏偏是我？”
因为快乐降临时你可没有问过这个问题。

当然排除生离死别。。。

哈

下一站幸福_经典名

=>9th Jan 2011




转载~~
下一站幸福～❤❤❤

1.其实你不需要跟我道歉的，因为道歉根本没有用，失去的东西失去了，伤害了还是伤害，道歉并不能让时间倒转，也不能让发生的事情过去。——慕橙

2.原来爱情从没离开过，只是我记得，你忘了。——慕橙

3.你知道在冰场上如果说把手交给对方，就等于把生命也交给他，我刚才说我会牵着你，就等于我会承诺保护你，不顾一切，直到现在为止。——光晞

4 你现在一时的同情，不是帮助，只会让她更痛苦，因为你永远不会是她的家人，而她自始自终还是一个人。—慕橙

5.就算知道也许不可能一直陪着它，但一旦插手就不能放手，因为它需要我，也需要你。——光晞

6.因为是两个人做的事情，有人牵着，去哪里都可以；有人回应着，说什么也可以，因为那是两个人的事情，就算再无聊，它都变得好幸福。——慕橙

7.如果人的记忆，只能选择一秒钟的额度， 我希望，就是这一瞬间。——光晞

8.梦醒了，就该忘了。不要哭，不要为了它伤心或是痛苦。等遇到下一个，能和你创造新的回忆的人，请你一定要接受他，开心的去生活，然后，你只要偶尔的去想起我，这样就够了。 ——光晞

9.如果时间能够倒转那有多好，当然那是不可能的事情，但是能有让时间暂停的魔法，那就是摄影，不是吗？摄影师让瞬间，变成永恒的魔法。——摄影师

10.我们对他而言，已经没有任何的意义，也许哪天在路上碰到了，就像陌生人一样，擦肩而过。——慕橙

11 你可以放弃，你可以发脾气，但是如果你不努力，没有人可以帮你。——以茜

12.我害怕失去你，我害怕你对我的爱有怀疑，我害怕，你不知道你对我有多重要。——光晞

13.我心里面有很多疑问，但是我却想不起来答案。我只能装作不寂寞，不在乎，因为我不想照顾我的人担心。—光晞

14.我不想一辈子像一个傻瓜一样，活在空白的记忆中。——光晞

15.很多时候，现实的状况会逼着我们向前走，有一些人，一些事，都必须要放弃，这是我当妈妈以后所学会的。慕橙

16.我原本猜不到，这个感人的爱情故事，有什么秘密让你一直骗着我，直到我自己拼凑出来结局。——光晞

17.找回我的记忆是我的幸运，但这会变成你的不幸。——光晞

18.愈是信任，背叛愈深：愈是爱，伤害愈大。——光晞

19.如果说我也一样呢？因为害怕，所以把你推开；因为没有勇气去知道真正的答案，所以逃避；因为我们的过去塞满了一堆谎言。面对你，我不断地猜测什么是真，什么是假。——光晞

20.男人学不会的事，是因为他在等一个女生帮他完成，也许这么多年来我没有学会打领带，是因为在等一个人。——光晞

21.我最在乎的是，你从头到尾都没有相信我。——拓也

22.在你眼前的我，是最真实的，一直都是。——慕橙

23.我真的没有办法在被欺骗了。只要你说，我就会接受。——光晞

24.我只要一个答案，现在还来得及，只要你愿意告诉我。——光晞

25.从头到尾我希望你对我说一句真心话，你却选择撒谎。——光晞

26.原来，只有我在乎而已。——光晞

27.你们总觉得我不能承受，我最难过的就是你们一点都不相信我。——光晞

28.说谎 ，是因为太爱对方。——方德容

29.如果你想要拒绝我，你只要给我一个真心的理由，我可以接受。——光晞

30.我没有你想的那么脆弱，更不需要你的同情跟保护。——梁慕橙

31.我不问，是因为我连问都不用问，我连一秒钟都不用多想，你不是那一种人。——花拓也

32.就算证据不足也能证明真理，这就是律师存在的意义。——任光晞

33.有些人习惯活在谎言之中才会觉得幸福和安全。——小林律师

34.老师说过，有时候梦想也会变成真的，那叫做奇迹。——糖糖

35.人生不管在多困难的时候，都可以完成最动人的乐章。——慕橙

36.如果可以的话，我宁愿忘了回家的路，也不要忘记她的每一个瞬间。——摄影师

37.被撞击，被伤害，我才感觉到我是真的在活着，其他时候，我跟死了没两样。——光晞

38.在法庭上没有几率的问题，只有真相。——光晞

39.你把我想得太伟大了。——方德容

40.爱有很多种方法，也许的我的方法并不正确，你可以不要接受，但是，爱的真心，你是不应该怀疑的。——方德容

41.其实你对他是不公平的，你从来都没有告诉他，你爱他。——拓也

42.不过如果时间可以重来，我一定会选择跟你重来，把所有的事实告诉你。——慕橙

43.我假装自己过得很好，其实我不快乐。我假装自己很勇敢，其实我很懦弱。——慕橙

44.因为，我相信你对我的爱。——慕橙

45.我有给过你机会，到最后，还是碰到一样的命运。——光晞

46.因为，你就是我的命运。——慕橙

47.任何决定要的，就不要放手，包括在乎的人。——慕橙

48.如果我告诉你，我爱你，你可不可以为了这个理由留下来？

49.我要想你求偿，赔偿的是，在我身边一辈子。——光晞

50.不管到哪里都可以，因为只要有你的那一站，就是幸福的。——慕橙

last article of 2010...

=>28th Dec 2010...










Well~as my title mentioned...
this is the last article for 2010 before the year end...
1 year again will going to pass...=.=''


2010...quite many things happened
there included happiness,,sadness,,troubleness,,excitedness,, ...and so on...
by the way..hoping 2011will be going well..


two more weeks my third sem life have to start again..@@''
terrible that i have to face my terribleee results next year...
so what..all cause by myself for laziest
i should admit that i never put so much effort on them...
so can only blame myself ...@@"


Although feel boring while think about start of the new term
but at least i can meet up my degree friends at the time
seriously..i loved my classmates sincerely..
you guys bring a lot of funnnn anytime..
all of you really light up my degree life...it's wonderful...
i never think of my degree life can such colourful..and crazynessss..haha
we always "lai kiek" (*sudden decide*) for outgoing anywhere..
anyway i loved "lai kiek"...hiak hiak... xD



i have learned many in this year...
expecially in this few months...
some of the moments have also enlightenment many..
and gain some life principles...
sometimes we should not to view something be too seriously..
most important is not to “钻牛角尖”
think widely~view from difference kinds of direction and take it easy..
it will be better~ and you will become more cheerfully and optimistic~ =)

allright...i still hope i can overcome my most biggest weakness~laziestttttt!!!
this personally had harm me a lot since a very long time ago til now..
ishhh...lazyyyy worm!!please go away from me!!please...=.=''


that day i saw a very meaningful article from my fren blog..
the content are something about ~i simply describe here^^''

sometime when u felt u are harder to continue something...
and no way to continue again...
and u felt super tired until no more strength for tears and complain anymore..
u felt impossible to insist on or persistently..
however...when u come over that gap..
and while u turn back to see..
how in the trance
we still survived!!
all we have already gone through of it
and the pain, the suffer, the cried have been passed!!

the tenacity of human is need to incentive
u always think that u yourself is a very vulnerable person
like an example, u pretend as a glass easy to broken after hit
in fact u also been forcefully strike by hit by knock
and at the last, u just found that u had not been crack
u haven't been overwhelm ...

so...
u discover that
actually...u can be strong and toughful... =)


a new year~2011 will be coming soon..
a new opportunity for betterment and empowerment for everyone...
i sincere wish all the people beside me stay happiness forever ..
may this new dawn bring us wisdom, courage and integrity to pursue our goals
and create our own history ... (*.^'') ~ =)

Useless!!! ='(

=>9th Nov 2010...



或许你曾经说的没错
我真的是什么事都做不好
什么事都做到乱七八糟
一事无成


HATE MYSELF
HATE MYSELF
HATE MYSELF
HATE MYSELF
HATE MYSELF


='(((


。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。





一直以来都认为自己是坚强的
一直以来都认为自己能勇于克服种种困难
一直以来都认为自己能承受一切
一直以来都认为自己能适当地把压力处理的妥当
一直以来都认为自己是打不死的蟑螂
一直以来都认为自己是开朗的
一直以来都认为压力不算什么
一直以来都坚信船到桥头自然直


但如今，一直以来自己认为的却不是
或许成长的关系
也感受到种种的不简单
一切也变得没那么简单
几乎喘不过气来
以前不轻易滑落的眼泪
如今竟变得那么的廉价。。。

♥♥♥

=>17th Oct 2010




Sometimes every person must have their down emo
and i admit that this few days i am in a bad situation
almost what i think about more prefer to negative direction uncontrolly
non of people knew my feeling and i never told anyone
and i found that all are nonbelievers beside me
make me felt sick of it
and more seriously is~
i felt that is non meaningful and suffering being a human
shit!!unexpectedly i think out this kind of matter!!!=.=!!!
and this is the first time also
But by the way...
i appreciate to my daddy who told me alots ytd
i comprehend what he try to tell about
and now i am vry clear about it
so now i am fine...=)
thanks my daddy~♥♥♥

In fact, regardless of anything just look at how you think of it positively or negatively~
So try your best to stay happily always when live in the moment~=)))))



do properly by yourself enough!!!~=))



must be tough...^.^**

=.=!!!

=>15th Oct 2010




This is my FIRST time

the FIRST time

FIRST time

dropping tears BEFORE the examination

without under my control

because of business law!

shameful!!!

shit!!what the hell!!!


need to learn self - control for everythings